10 Days to Go

Man it was hot this weekend. My hands and feet are all swelly. Was a strange weekend - we didn't do much. Brian let me sleep in today because I was feeling really really awful. I feel better now but mentally, I'm totally off.

Dr appt on Friday went fine. Brian and Molly went with. Dr. Spieser said my weight was good (I weigh less than I did with Molly due to this lame diet). My blood sugar numbers are good. I've got more non stress testing tomorrow. Friday is my pre-op appointment. Oh course, I'm supposed to go straight into the hospital if my contractions become regular (5 in an hour) or if my water breaks.

I'm getting really nervous. I know ultimately all will be fine but I can't help feeling anxious and scared. A c-section is major surgery - recovery sucks but at least it won't be as tramatic as Molly's birth. I'm more nervous about having 2 kids - how will Molly react and frankly, just how am I going to do it? Will I go back to work? Where? You know, that type of thing. It's been 9 months since I've worked which is the longest time I've not worked since I was 14 years old! I love this time I've had and I thank my parents for being so supportive. I'm feeling overwhelmed and hormonal. Ah such is motherhood.

Anywho, I'm delivering at St. Mary's in Long Beach on Atlantic. I'll be there for 3-5 days so I hope I'll have some visitors (hint hint). Just call before. My sister, Brian's mom and my mom will all be here to help me take care of Molly and our new one. Brian is going to take a week off.

Some bonzo got a hold of my debit card and tried charging $800 worth of stuff. Fortunately we caught it in time, I cancelled the card but overall it was a real pain that we are still trying to recover from. Also the external drive on our computer failed this week so I might have lost some files. I'm really bummed about that. Brian managed to save a lot but it's going to be a long process. AHH! more things to worry about. It's just life trying to mix things up. OK, I'm going to stay positive.

Oh, my friend Debbie had her baby on April 22 at 3:50 am. It's a girl. Her name is Delilah (I don't know if that's spelled correctly). She was 8.5 lbs and 20" long. Congratulations to Debbie & Brian Shields! I can't wait to see a photo of her. I know they are busy trying to settle in - it's their first and boy do I remember how overwhelmed I was the first 3 months!

OK it's late. I'm hot. I'll watch a little more tv and then attempt sleep.

Good night all.